Who am I?
I am the girl that YOU see sitting in class at her desk, quietly minding her own business. The girl that doesn’t talk much.
Is that really true though?
Looking through my friends eyes, I am like a flower bud that slowly begins to bloom. Once people begin to talk to me, they get to know me better and realise that I talk too much and can not control my laughter.
My name means sunrise in Arabic, and at home my family likes to compare me to the sun. In surroundings including people I don’t know well, I am much quieter and you would tend to miss me almost as if I was hiding behind the clouds and no light was showing. On the other hand, when i’m surrounded by my friends and family I am very loud and energetic. Therefore, there would be no way you would miss me behind the clouds because you would still see the light shining through.
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I am as delicate as glass. I am very accepting and share my love and trust too easily, and when that is messed with I break and it takes a while for me to get myself back together.
I express my feelings and emotions in different ways. Through writing, painting, art, and the use of my voice.
I tend to stare into the dark night sky filled with shiny glistening stars and find myself fall into deep thought and I begin to overthink. Only because in my world everything needs to be precise and organised in order for me to feel satisfied.
People look at me and see an innocent girl who loves too much and cares too much, and they begin to take advantage of my kindness and respect I show to everyone around me. I always wonder what I ever did to be taken so much advantage of. All I ever did was be kind and in return people use that and take it as my weakness.
They say look at her, what is she wearing? Why does she look the way she does? All of these judgements made without seeing what is on the inside. This is why I don’t care anymore. Every flower is unique and beautiful in it’s own way. People can say and think whatever they want about me, but that won’t stop me from being who I am. Which is a teenage girl who loves to goof off, laugh a lot, make jokes, and spend time with the people she loves the most.
My name is Zuha Rafiq, and welcome to my blog!